I am soooooo tired.
I thought I had a fever today.
I hate being a female sometimes.
Did I tell you I'm tired.

i don't really want to go interstate now. i haven't got much money and I'm slowly going into debt. Great.
Not on my credit card but on my mums.
yeesh.

Went to Church twice today. 9am then came home and slept. Then slept alomst another broken 6hours then went to the night service.
Sigh.
I need to get rid of this hate in my life. It's destroying me.
I want to leave this house and my discusting awful, verbally abusive brother.
He causes me so much anger and grief. He is the hate in my life.

It's exausting to hate but I can't help it. I try not to - like last night for expmple. i started to complement him about his new car. Ok, Good start.
Less then five minutes later I"m a
"Stupid, Fucken, lazy bitch"
WHY?? Because I didn't bring the towels off the line. To Which mind you I was at work, went out shopping then they were damp and I was going out. So instead of bringing in some towels - to which I had also washed AND put out, I decided to sit down because I was really tired and had to go out.
When he said that I arked up and gave it back.
I was SOOOOO angry that by that stage I just broke.
It's not fair. I've looked for other places to live but they won't accept dogs and the other was asking to much for what it was.
I still went out and I rang my mum in tears whilst driving.
She said she would talk to him.
My night had turned to crap by that stage that I didn't want to go out but had no choice. I may as well have just not gone I staied an hour then came home. I was just too upset to stay and dance and pretend to have a good time.
I'm done pretending.
I'm over it.
I came home and brother was in bed. He called out a apoligy. Whatever.
He says it so often "Sorry" "oh, sorry" yeah - You know what? Means NOTHING!
NOTHING! NOTHING! Five minutes later he says the same thing again! It's like it's giving him the ok to say it because don't worrie - he'll apoligise and it will all be ok. well FUCK!
IT'S NOT! IT'S REALLY NOT!!!!!!!!
I HATE swaring but it seems relavant. I HATE HIM! There's NOTHING ABOUT HIM THAT I LIKE! HATE! HATE!HATE!!!!!!!
I'm still angry.
This is what I mean. All this happened at about 8 o'clock last night and I'm still FUMING! I didn't see him today as he was working but he just came home said that he needs to go back to work and return something then left again.
I ignored him. Compleatly ignored him.
Soon I know that he won't be ablr to take me ignoring him and then he'll abuse me for ignoring him.
Forgive and forget you say? NO. This happens to often.
WAY WAY WAY to often.
I have a headache and yesterday it was an instant headache.
He starts yelling and I HATE HIM!!!!!!
It goes on constantly. I live with this.
I have no support and it's not through lack of trying.
Sigh.
I needed to get that out.
Oh God, help me.

Saturday night out? Give me a glass of Red, pen paper and my guitar and i'll be happy

I brought a snorkel and goggoles today :)
I was with Tim and I was debating weather to get it or not but I didn't know where to use it. I asked if he'll come out with me (because I've never done it before and he has and knows where to go)and he said yes.
So That's good.
I'm off to go play my guitar. I like it even if I do just do my own thing, I like to just kinda go along and make up stuff.

I'm also going out tonight eith Raff. I really don't want to.
I don't want to go out to any more nightclubs i'm over it. Sleezy, sweaty guys wanting to dance - Ew.
With the right people and place it could be fun but I know Raff wants to pick up and I just have beyond no intention.
And - I'm tired. I'd much rather go out to the pool room and just chill, play pool and have a few drinks with friends.

I miss Thea.
I spoke to her this morning and she sounded a little... reserved.
Maybe she's just confused, stressed with her new job and moving house/state.
Now being in Seattle she'll have to make a whole group of new friends and It's probably that she's just having to find her feet.

I hope she doesn't think that ... Tim (her long distance Boyfriend) and I will do anything.
Not going to happen. I wouldn't do that to her and he is besotted by with her.
Loves her till the end of the earth and back.

I guess i'll just pray for her.

b bye

I thought this was quite true!

Here are are some words that are hard to say when your drunk…
1 - Innovative
2 - Preliminary
3 - Proliferation
4 - Cinnamon



Things that are VERY DIFFICULT to say when drunk.

1 - Specificity
2 - British constitution
3 - Passive-aggressive disorder
4 - Transubstantiate



Things which are IMPOSSIBLE to say when drunk



1 - Thanks for the offer, but I don't want to sleep with you.
2 - Nope, no more booze for me.
3 - No kebab for me, thank you.
4 - Sorry, but you're not really my type.
5 - Look mate, I've told you, I'm not interested in a fight.
6 - No way, I couldn't, nobody wants to hear me sing.
7 - Thanks for asking, but I don't want to dance. I have no
co-ordination and hate to make a fool of myself.
8 - Where is the nearest public lavatory? I absolutely refuse to
pee in the street.
9 - I must be going now as I have work in the morning.
10- No no Im fine… I can ride that Buckn Bull… no buckn worries

Mmmm …..

me today

Well, Today I rode a horse. Not just any horse but a HUGE one. He’s a Clydesdale cross. I’ve been told it’s ok to ride him because he’s owner doesn’t ride him much and he’s young and just sitting in the paddock.
It was good. Being that it was really, really windy he didn’t like that and told me so by running out and giving a buck/pigroot type thing, which almost got me off.
He’s a sweet horse, loves cuddles.
Hates wind. The wind just spooks him.
I haven’t told my mum because – I don’t want to talk horsey stuff. I don’t care about feed and different types, shoes and rugs and just little things. I just don’t want to talk about any horsey stuff with her. What I should and shouldn’t be doing etc. Yeah that really use to drive my crazy.
She knows everything – so she thinks. And she does know a lot – but I just don’t want to hear it.
I know what I’m doing for now and if I need help, I’ll look elsewhere.
I rode for half an hour and I was stuffed! I'm beyond not fit.
I'm going to be sore tomorrow!

Went out last night for Theas good bye drinks / Yoshies Birthday.
It was freezing cold and he was a little drunk (I wasn’t) but he was flirting with me a bit and I really wasn’t with him. I don’t want to give out any signs.

So yeah.
That’s today and last night.

See ya!

me today

Well, Today I rode a horse. Not just any horse but a HUGE one. He’s a Clydesdale cross. I’ve been told it’s ok to ride him because he’s owner doesn’t ride him much and he’s young and just sitting in the paddock.
It was good. Being that it was really, really windy he didn’t like that and told me so by running out and giving a buck/pigroot type thing, which almost got me off.
He’s a sweet horse, loves cuddles.
Hates wind. The wind just spooks him.
I haven’t told my mum because – I don’t want to talk horsey stuff. I don’t care about feed and different types, shoes and rugs and just little things. I just don’t want to talk about any horsey stuff with her. What I should and shouldn’t be doing etc. Yeah that really use to drive my crazy.
She knows everything – so she thinks. And she does know a lot – but I just don’t want to hear it.
I know what I’m doing for now and if I need help, I’ll look elsewhere.
I rode for half an hour and I was stuffed! I'm beyond not fit.
I'm going to be sore tomorrow!

Went out last night for Theas good bye drinks / Yoshies Birthday.
It was freezing cold and he was a little drunk (I wasn’t) but he was flirting with me a bit and I really wasn’t with him. I don’t want to give out any signs.

So yeah.
That’s today and last night.

See ya!

because I don't want to sleep just yet hear are some useless facts about me in a quizz

1. Where did you take your default picture?
New Years eve it's a cut down at a friends house
2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
one black and one light blue ancle socks, purple and white tyedyed fisherman pants, hot pink boob tube

3. What is your current problem?
tiredness

4. What makes you most happy?
sunshine, beach, good friends

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
M*A*S*H is on the T.V

6. Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?
Not recently-..touch wood

7. Do you ever watch MTV?
sometimes

8. Name something that's really annoying to you?
people who are quick to judge
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Chapter 1:

1. First name: karen

2. Nickname(s): kaz, kazzy

3. Current location: lounge/family room

4. Eye color: gray/blue/green - depends with what I wear


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Chapter 2:

1. Do you live with your parents? no

2. Do you get along with your parents? mum i do

3. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? divorced

4. Do you have any siblings? one brother
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Chapter 3: Favorite...

1. Ice Cream: none don't eat it

2. Season: summer

3.Color: sky blue

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Chapter 4: Do You..

1. Write on your hand? sometimes

2. Call people back:yeah

3. Believe in love?: debatable

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed? left side

5. Have any bad habits? bite my nails

6. Any mental-health issues? Issues...what issues....you saying I have issues... what....do I...I don't know...are you looking at me?? ... ;)

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Chapter 5: Have You..

1. Broken a bone? nope

3. Had physical therapy? yep

4. Gotten stitches? yes

5. Taken painkillers? oh yeah love that one!

6. Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling: snorkeling once.

7. Been stung by a bee? yes

8. Thrown up at the dentist's office: nope

9. Sworn in front of your parents: yeeesss.....
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Chapter 6: Who/What was the last

1. Movie you saw? persuit of happiness

2. Person to text you? no one

3. Person you called: Raff

4. Thing you touched? The keyboard

5. Thing you ate? honey on bread

6. Thing you said: shh

7. Last person you kissed? Yosh



AND ANOTHER ONE.....
1. WHAT CURSE WORD DO Y0U USE THE MOST?
God dam it!

2. DO YOU OWN AN IPOD?
ipod?

3. WHAT PERSON ON YOUR TOP 8 DO YOU TALK TO THE MOST?
thea at the moment

4. WHAT TIME IS Y0UR ALARM CLOCK SET TO?
0445am except sat when it's 0630

5.WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND?
thea

6. DO YOU WEAR FLIP-FLOPS WHEN IT'S COLD?
sometimes

7. WOULD Y0U RATHER TAKE THE PICTURE OR BE IN THE PICTURE?
in it! :D

8. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
persuit of happiness

9. DO ANY OF YOUR FRIENDS HAVE CHILDREN?
yep one and it's bazzar

10. HAS ANY0NE EVER CALLED YOU LAZY?
yep! I don't clean my room or ... much

11. DO YOU EVER TAKE MEDICATION TO HELP YOU FALL ASLEEP?
yeah - anything that works!

12. WHAT CD IS CURRENTLY IN YOUR CD PLAYER?
evermore

13. DO YOU PREFER REGULAR OR CHOCOLATE MILK?
soy milk
14. HAS ANYONE TOLD YOU A SECRET THIS WEEK?
yep

15. CAN YOU WHISTLE?
yep

17. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
face, hair then what ever stands out.

18. DO YOU THINK PEOPLE TALK ABOUT YOU BEHIND YOUR BACK?
don't care

19. DID YOU WATCH CARTOONS AS A CHILD?
yeah

20. WHAT MOVIE DO YOU KNOW EVERY LINE TO?
far and away

21. LOOK TO YOUR RIGHT. WHAT DO YOU SEE?
my guitar

22. LOOK TO YOUR LEFT. WHAT DO YOU SEE?
empty bottle of red wine :D

23. DO YOU OWN ANY BAND T-SHIRTS?
Negative

24. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SALAD DRESSING?
french maybe

25. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
I dunno

26. DO YOU DO YOUR OWN DISHES?
sometimes

27. EVER CRY IN PUBLIC?
have done depends on the reason

28. ARE YOU ON A DESKTOP COMPUTER OR A LAP TOP?
laptop

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY WANTING ANY PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS?
tattoo thiniking bout a piercing and perhaps another tattoo

30. WHATS THE WEATHER LIKE?
humid

31. WOULD YOU EVER DATE ANYONE COVERED IN TATTOOS?
probably not

32. WHAT DID YOU DO BEFORE THIS?
come home from work, got changed then jumped on to the net

33. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SLEPT ON THE FLOOR?
hmm... when I was a teenager....passed out

34. HOW MANY HOURS OF SLEEP DO YOU NEED TO FUNCTION?
bout 8

35. DO YOU EAT BREAKFAST DAILY?
yes

36. ARE YOUR DAYS FULL AND FAST PACED?
most are with work...

37. DO YOU PAY ATTENTION TO THE CALORIES IN THE PACKAGE?
no
38. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeaaahhh.....ish
39. HOW OLD WILL Y0U BE TURNING ON Y0UR NEXT BIRTHDAY?
26!!!!!!!!!!!

40. ARE YOU PICKY ABOUT SPELLING AND GRAMMAR?
na

41. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO SIX FLAGS?
where?

42. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SEX IN A PUBLIC BATHROOM?
no

43. DO YOU LIKE MUSTARD?
not really

44. DO YOU GET ALONG BETTER WITH THE SAME SEX OR THE OPPOSITE?
both depends on the person

45. DO YOU SLEEP ON YOUR SIDE, STOMACH or BACK?
fall asleep on my stomach wake up on my side

48. WHO WAS THE LAST PERS0N TO MAKE YOU MAD?
brother

49. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
everyone

50. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU PURCHASED?
hmmm.... I didn't exactly "purchese" it but I paid the Vet $500 in a bill does that coun't??

I need my health!

I’m honestly addicted to caffeine!
I get a headache and my heart thumps funny like if I don’t get it.
I have to dry myself out – over my holidays.

My boobs have been sore for days, it’s like a stabbing pain and really sore to touch.
My stomach is bloated, legs hurt and I can’t concentrate.
This is my health I don’t want to mess with it.
Yeesh.

I can’t wait till I don’t have to work.

My overies are twisting and throbbing! I feel so bloated! I’m really tired.
I need sleep.

Bye.

I'm complaining. Lots. yeah. Whatever.

If only....

Something that has made me happy – Playing my guitar.
No matter what, I just seem to get lost in it.
I like it.
So off I go - Now, to get lost in that feeling of when things just fit and sounds just come and it all seems so sound like things make sense.


I feel bloated and gross.
I’m addicted to caffeine.

Sometimes I just want to be…….
Well do things I know I shouldn't. Things that would help me escape this crap and maybe give me just a little.... hmmm.
Sometimes…. only sometimes....I know how.
And it’s not good and I only have myself to stop me.
Should I be tempted I would say no but…..
Catch me in a moment where I just no longer care….
I just might….

But it's still the start to a new year and it's going to be better

How did I get like this? I think like I don't care. You know what- I'm not sure I do.
I need to get caring again. I need to feel love and give love.
But I don't want to. i need to but I don't want to.
I guess it all sounds a little stupid.
Maybe because I see Thea with her Boyfriend I don't feel jelous I'm happy to see her happy and in love him too. Espicially since I know them both and know how much they mean to eachother.
It's really good for them.

I guess I'm looking forward to my holidays now but... I still feel like...
i'm going to be alone... a little scared to be by myself in a caravan park when there's no one really there.... without Damon...

I guess that's the part i'm not so hot about.

My brother drives me to the brink.

I have no support.
I feel like I have no support.
No one cares.
Really.

This is the not so hot part about being single.

Yet I still don't want anyone.
sound screwed up?
yeah. That's me at the moment.

But it's still the start to a new year and it's going to be better.

I'm over it.
Whatever.

Today

I'm so very tired today went out to the hot springs and had a stand off with one of the guys I went with. Who could stay in the Sauna the longest at 70 degreese.
we called it a draw - But we both were a little a worse for wear by the end o it.

It was a good day at work today.
it's been a long day and I'm stuffed.
Better go...

$500!!!!!!!

I took Damon to the River yesterday. $500 and a little worse for wear he's home and quiet. A little cut which was really rather long and deep bleed alot.
So he had to be re vaccinated so I did it all in one hit.
Sheesh.
There goes any holiday money I thought I was going to have!

more changes....

Sigh.
I’m not looking forward to my holidays.
It just really spells alone and expensive.
I’m thinking I might stay at home. This is a bad idea because my brother will be at home. Good idea because I can go out to many places I just can’t usually do because I get tired.
I’ve just felt really crap all day.
Thinking I can go out to the beach and surf….
Go to listen to poetry as I use to before I got sick.
I can go to the festival that goes on for a week.
I can take Damon to the river.
I can go see my other best friend who I don’t see to much cos she lives so far away.
I can read my books and play my guitar.
I can write.
See Fi and just do my own thing.
I can do all these things…… but….. I think about these things and I think kinda think…. Sometimes I want to do them on my own and other times…. I don’t.
The poetry things I can do on my own. I always have you just go and meet people there. The guitar and reading is good alone.
The festival I can get someone to come with me I’m sure.
Sometimes I’m really confident in that I think I can do it. I can. I will.
Then only minutes later I’ll be thinking…. Maybe not. I’ll be alone.
Then I think well….I’m sure that I’ll be able to keep myself busy.
I’m really sure I can.
It wouldn’t be so costly and I think I can make the most of it. Go away for a little bit… down to the beach…. Up to the coast to see my cousin. The guy not the one with al the kids. He’s got three kids.
I’ll just go up there for a weekend then come back. The kids are at school and my cousins working. So there’s really nothing for me up there.
I have been wanting to go to the festival for three years and go to the market on a Saturday. This makes me look forward to the holiday.
I can only rely on me.
Me. No one else.
If I want to do this I will. The holiday is what you make of it.
Yeah. That’s right. Defiantly.
Life is what you make of it. God, Just do it. Just look forward to it and 3 weeks of NOT working. Doing what ever you want to.
That makes me feel ….. nice. Good.
That’s right now…. Hopefully I keep thinking like this….
And my attitude won’t change in ten minutes…..

Saturday night....

Lets go out, do something fun. I thought about going out to a nightclub but I'm too tired... then Raff seems to have heaps of energy hence I'm now going out.
Should be fun anyway - but no more kissing Brazillian men.
I don't want another throate infection or aulcers....gross.
Yosh didn't give me that!
So I need to finish this cuppa tea, watch the rest of "Medium" and then go for a run.
ok? bye bye



this week is going to be full on.
Mk's away on holidays again... I'm looking forward to my time off.
I need a break.

The latest update on my holiday.

Kat told me today that because of the package deal with the holiday... the package won't let another person stay. Me.
Sigh.
I don't know...looks like i'll just stay in a motel/hotel if I can...
Near where they will be staying... I just think... Sigh.
It might be nice by myself up there...
The wedding I was talking about well it's very small / only real close friends and family. Were not real close.... I don't really mind but i guess she won't care if I don't go... If Im in the city I will tho. I just won't go to the reception...then again... If everyone else is going I don't think I really want to be the one saying "well have a good night" .- and I walk off...

Oh well... Maybe i'll just have a great time alone. Reading, spending time with me.
Doing what I want. yeah - I'll go out, spend time with the others I'll just also enjoy my own company and not working! Yeah. Yeah. That's it.

Convinced yet? Yeah. I'll just be me and do what I want. yeah. yeah.
Sigh.

long rambelings on my non existant relaionship brain!

I went to the river yesterday. A group o us were meeting up at various times.
I met Yoshi there.
I didn’t want to kiss him. I don’t know. I just kinda …..
Well hear it is. He’s nice, not all that confident around girls….
We flirted a little but I could feel myself just being … I dunno.
I didn’t kiss him when we met up. Strike 1 – I usually do to everyone it’s not really even a kiss it’s just like a cheek thing – like what Italians do.
That sort of, I guess changed things. Because I didn’t want to lead him on I didn’t really flirt with him a lot. It use to come REALLY easy – at times I didn’t realise I was! Theas the same. But I thought about it to much and I guess what it was, was that deep down I’ve got serious issues. I don’t really like men.
I’m treating them as objects.
I mean I like some just not the ones who seem to take an interest in me.
I like the ones who I’m friends with and know I’ll never go out with them.
So anyway I left and gave Yosh a hug an a kiss on the cheek goodbye.
“I’ll see you soon”
I just thought ahhh…. “yeeaahh….possibility”
“ok”
I spoke to Thea and her now Boyfriend “Parks” about it. They kept saying it was fear and I should just do it but I know – really I know that, it’s not going to go anywhere so why lead the guy on.
I was lying in bed, hating the fact that I should of just told him at the river that I wasn’t interested but I was stuck in two hard spots. I kinda like the guy but then I squash any feelings because I don’t like men as general – not EVERYone just in general.
(I said something to Jas once – he replied with “Hey, I have feelings too you know”
I don’t remember what I said but I remember it was a little harsh and I just thought – Whatever! See this is where I’m at! I don’t like it and I cant’ stop it!)
So I’m lying in bed and I send a text to him.
“Hey yosh,- my head space with males isn’t really all that great at the moment. It’s probably easier to maybe keep it friends (with occasional drunk benefits:) )
You’re a great guy – hence I know I wouldn’t be the type of person I wish I could be…anyhow – see you again when we do xkaz”
I just figured it was nice and to the point. It was honest.
I know it’s not good but I can’t help it. He replied with
“thank you, I think you’re great too, I hope you know you could make any mans dream come true, you just need the man that makes you happy that you deserve but in the meantime you can have the benefits in a friendship with me if you like”
I told him I’d like that.
So I was glad I was honest and didn’t lead him on.
The guy for now would be – confident – be able to carry on a conversation with me then if the conversation goes well he just goes right ahead and kisses me.
It’s just confidence. If I knew that someone liked me and it was just the two of us around or something I’d sus out the person then just kiss them!
I guess that’s attraction.
Hmmm. Even though Jack is an ass – I still remember the first kiss he gave me. Lol!
I returned it of course then The first thing I say is “ that was unexpected” turn around and walk off!!! This is a guy who I really had a crush on and I did that! Oh well- it was for the best.
Then Eve – he’s kiss. We were on the couch – nothing was meant to happen but then it just did. About 10minutes (if that!) later Desire/ passion/ hunger exploded like a bomb and we couldn’t stop! It was awesome!
I guess the difference is that hear is something I knew wouldn’t last so I didn’t care and it was all desire and lust.

I don’t know.
Confidence just to make the move.
Put his arm around me – mind you this is only if he feels the vibes and knows it’s a mutual thing.
I felt like such a stupid schoolgirl. I just really didn’t want to do anything with him.
So I didn’t.
If I want something I try and get it. But usually it’s something I want for now not the future. Cos in the future I don’t really want anyone.
This too is my problem. I know people say it happens when you least expect it but what about when you just don’t want it? You refuse/decline and turn off. You don’t allow anyone to get to know you because you don’t want them to…know much…. or too much….
That’s me! I just find that I’d prefer to be single.

There’s a guy who has asked me out to drinks two or three and I decline because he cheated on his girlfriend – (I don’t care if it was a semi open relationship!) Kissing someone else while you have a boy/ girlfriend is cheating – in my books.
But the fact that he’s confident enough to ask me a third time shows character and is appealing but only to a point as he’s girlfriend dumped him new years day.
But when I was at the Christmas party we got along and it was fun.

So this is my little screwed up head in the relationship sense – At the top of my blog I have a percentage…. I think I may have to change it to 50% yes and 50% never sure….
Just for now.

It's still not official nothings cemented but....

So the latest – I’m not off to Vietnam.
I’m going interstate with kat and one of her friends. It’s probably not all that cheaper but it’s what I feel is the better choice.
I just have a very uneasy feeling about going there.
Mainly because I don’t want to go by myself but I just have a bad feeling about going.
So anyway a holiday interstate will be really great. A time to relax and do a lot of not much. A chance to completely relax.
I feel better making that decision…. The only catch is that they booked for a twin share. It shouldn’t really be a problem…. But …..
(There’s something funny on T.V! there is no one speaking when there obviously should be and it keeps on repeating! “Jesus Christ help us all lord!” it’s gone on for like- ten minutes!)

Anyway. It shouldn’t be a problem cos I’d just be bunking up with Kat so it’s not like we need another room.
She’s a little apprehensive thinking that I will want to go and do heaps of stuff outdoorsy – which I may but I’m reassuring her that I will be fine to go off and just do that stuff alone. I do that hear so it’s not a problem.
It’ll be good. I just want to put some money down somewhere or pay for a ticket so it can be cemented that I am actually going to be going somewhere for a holiday.
The place where they are staying is 4 star has it’s own gym and pool backs on to the beach and it’s not peak season so there shouldn’t be packed with people at the theme parks…..
In doing so I will be able to see Thea , go to Cookies wedding, Go to the massive festival happening in my city and poss see Spaadam. And work for Mk so I would only miss out on maybe two days rather then 3.
So it seems that every arrow is pointing in the direction to stay in this country for now.

New Years – My New Years Resolution? I want to see through the 14 km run in April. I went for a jog last night, it was really hot so I didn’t go for long but I’ll do it again tonight. Start slow.

Gotta go!

It worked!

Happy New Year!!!!!!



About 5 seconds after this it was a prymid effect - it was all over - a very drunken night!

NO PHOTOS

Happy New year!
I kissed this guy Yoshi, he’s cute.
I had a great time! Really good.
Very drunk and very hung over now.
I must go but I’ll try and download a pic.
45 min later
.... and it STILL DIDN"T WORK!!!!!!!!!!