yeah.

Sabs been in and out of town lately. From Friday to Wednesday then Thursday till Saturday then the following Wednesday till now Sunday.
I think that’s pretty much it, I haven’t seen much o him.
I miss him.
Hmm….
It’s Sunday morning and I feel like a blob.
I have been doing exercise and that helps.
I’m still finding my way in this small country town. I miss the busyness of back home. Lots and lots of people, people everywhere and the city is always packed.
Hear – the city is dead.
I went out last night and I got tired at 9pm.
The girl I was with wanted to party on so I stayed for another 2 and a bit hours . I just wanted to be under the doona and sleeping.
I have to just get used to this. It’s hard. With Sab gone I miss him but I wish I had a dog for company. Thing is that would just not work cos you then cant just up and leave.
I’m still working on developing my own friends. The girls at work are nice and I get along with them.
Hmm…..
I still haven’t found a church that I really like. I’m not doing much to help that situation really.
Sabs best friend said yesterday how he can’t see how sab and I have anything in common?? He drinks beer and watches footy and I go to church and am religious.
But even then he went on to say “like what was it that made you to hit it off??”
I told him how I see all the good things in Sab and I rolled off a million of them but it’s like he wasn’t convinced.
I felt like he was wondering why I was staying with him. I was quite annoyed at this remark. He doesn’t know who I am. It really annoys me. Know one expect for Sab really knows what I’m like. I don’t feel the need to have to explain myself till yesterday. Maybe he’s just curious because he’s single and can’t find a girl for himself. He want’s to know what to look for.
Sigh.
I’m going to go have some breakfast then clean up a bit.
So yeah that’s my Sunday till later.
hmmm.

PMT and me

Hormones, emotional crap and being extreamly tired.
I get very short fused and just want to be by myself.
Sab's away at the moment.
His brother is at home with me but i've spent alot of time in my room cos I just feel like I need time alone.

I love Sab so much and he really has seen me in pritty much all of my different stages of PMT and everything. The poor thing - he's so supportive and I was being silly and I couldn't help it. It's all PMT. I get low in iron, that gets me tired, then I get cranky, short tempered and through it all I'm all emotional with all those great hormones flying around my body.

I saw "knocked up" last night. What a waste of time that movie was. In heinz sight what's funny about a chick getting pregnant to what she thought was a slob.
Some bits were funny but wouldn't go see it.

I'm going to go and have a glass of red wine.

Sleep, go on just do it

Well, my birthday was a day of blunders all on Sabs behalf.
The night went well and all was forgiven by about lunch time the next day.
He spoilt me with a 7 hour day of pampering at a day spa!
7 hours! It cost him a fortune.
I also got a big bunch of “I’m sorry” flowers – as I said all is forgiven because there’s no point on holding on to it because at the end of the day I do love him.
It was just a disappointing day but a better night.
I won a 3 month gym membership. I better use it. There’s no way I’m weighing myself. I don’t want to do a “program” as such I just like to go in and do my own thing. I’m not into all that weight lifting crap.

Last night being wrapped up in Sab’s arms – it felt so good.

We are looking at a house, a few different ones. All around the same price – we need to go for a trip to the bank.

Today I’m not feeling very well, so I stayed at home. Feeling sick and tired isn’t all that nice.
I need to go to sleep. It’s lunch time.