If only....

Something that has made me happy – Playing my guitar.
No matter what, I just seem to get lost in it.
I like it.
So off I go - Now, to get lost in that feeling of when things just fit and sounds just come and it all seems so sound like things make sense.


I feel bloated and gross.
I’m addicted to caffeine.

Sometimes I just want to be…….
Well do things I know I shouldn't. Things that would help me escape this crap and maybe give me just a little.... hmmm.
Sometimes…. only sometimes....I know how.
And it’s not good and I only have myself to stop me.
Should I be tempted I would say no but…..
Catch me in a moment where I just no longer care….
I just might….