But it's still the start to a new year and it's going to be better

How did I get like this? I think like I don't care. You know what- I'm not sure I do.
I need to get caring again. I need to feel love and give love.
But I don't want to. i need to but I don't want to.
I guess it all sounds a little stupid.
Maybe because I see Thea with her Boyfriend I don't feel jelous I'm happy to see her happy and in love him too. Espicially since I know them both and know how much they mean to eachother.
It's really good for them.

I guess I'm looking forward to my holidays now but... I still feel like...
i'm going to be alone... a little scared to be by myself in a caravan park when there's no one really there.... without Damon...

I guess that's the part i'm not so hot about.

My brother drives me to the brink.

I have no support.
I feel like I have no support.
No one cares.
Really.

This is the not so hot part about being single.

Yet I still don't want anyone.
sound screwed up?
yeah. That's me at the moment.

But it's still the start to a new year and it's going to be better.

I'm over it.
Whatever.