The homecomming

Sab is due back on Tuesday. I've been looking forward to seeing him sooooo much.
I spoke to him today and it was sooo nice to hear his voice, Unfortunatly his voice said
"I have alot of work to do when I get back hon"
Not what I wanted to hear but because I also now have a life maybe it won't be so bad.
I just wish that sometimes we could live it together .
I don't know if he's bringing back one of the workers. I hope he dosen't because it spells out no time for us, I get cranky because it's always work and there will be just time for work and being that he'll be busy - well, i'll get left behind - again.
I mean, I like the people he brings home but they all work to hard - it's all the time!

I got made "reduntant" yesterday. She couldn't afford to keep me on and it was the truth.
I don't mind, I want to find a new job one that challenges me and keeps me busy.
Preferably not hairdressing.

I miss Sab.
I have a bloated/sore stomach. I can't eat noodles.
I don't like being alone in a relationship altho I know that he can't help it - but I don't have to like it.

This is how it's going

Arr...
My life at the moment has finally taken a turn for thing the better. I'm going out playing social tennis, taking Kadie to dog trainning school, playing social touch football and meeting and going out with new people.
These people have met me as me and not as "Sabs Girlfriend".
Work - well i'm still hairdressing. Yeeppeee.
I want more money and maybe I need two jobs for that... but it's not going anywhere where I am at the moment.
Sabs overseas at the moment. All up he would have been gone for two weeks.
I miss him when he goes. He's always going away with work. Work work work.
He tells me it's for us but I just want us sometimes.
This Thursday it will be one year since the day I met him. We go off that day.
He'll be away overseas and I don't think he'll remember.
I kinda figure it'll be just another day.
It's not really a big deal to me. I'd like him to be hear, just so we can talk about the year and be all lovey dovey see how far we've come together and that sort of thing.
Instead i'll be at work then at touch football then i'll call him when it's over and we'll talk on the phone.
It's not the same. His work is taking over. He wants to bring home some workers and have one stay with us for a bit. I'm not into that and I told him that I want him and him alone.
If he brings a guy back home it'll be talk work, do work - talk some more and I won't have him home at all. It would be like he wasn't actually hear.
I just really need him home sometimes. Sigh.
I'll just have to continue keeping myself busy and whe he comes back - keep on with what i'm doing and just - I know when he comes home it will be hard because I want to see him and not go out to trainning for touch footy - etc.
Sux.
Sigh.