Friday, February 23, 2007

Well, I never thought it could happen to me - and it did!

Well.
Where to start!???
The first week was a little dreary ( if ya couldn’t tell ;) )
I missed home because I was thinking about things that I could maybe do and I wanted my holidays to go as long as possible.
So I was only going to stay for four days. Saturday till Tuesday.
I went online on Monday and found that it was all sold out and I wasn’t prepared to spend $500 to come home when I could do it for $260 on Friday morning.
So I booked it.
Now this is where it becomes Interesting. Well for me that is. Don’t know how interesting you’ll find it, being that your reading it.
My Cousins best friends were away. One was at a job somewhere (Sab) the other (Bob)was working interstate, until the first Monday because he came down for a friends wedding. I meet him last time he came down and he had a bit of a crush on me.
Back then I went for one of he’s friends. This time round I wasn’t interested in the slightest in him or anyone because I decided to be single for quite awhile and just enjoy it.
Bob was again this time dropping all the hints again. I wasn’t going to go there because it just wouldn’t work. and beyond not interested. Anti men.
On the Tuesday my cousin dropped around to see Sab but he wasn’t home.
I didn’t really care because I was tagging along with my cousin and it was just his friend. The next night we went to archery and Bob came along.
Again my Cousin wanted to see Sab because he hadn’t seen him for ten days cos he was out at a site working.
So Cousin rang him and he had just come home. Cousin said that we would drop around before we head off to Archery.
So off we went again.
We got there and walked in.
There were about 7 guys all standing/ sitting around the table. Of course I didn’t know who was who and I had a glance around looking at all the new faces.
One caught my eye. He was just chatting and we didn’t really get introduced so he introduced himself then quickly did the rounds with all the names.
Sab seemed to be surrounded with friends and talking to all them.
We only stayed there for about ten maybe fifteen minutes.
We went on to archery, At the end of it we were just about to go home but I figured that if I’m hear and not working (bob wasn’t working either) I wanted to go out considering that I will be leaving on the Friday and this was the Wednesday.
So Bob and Cousin made a few phone calls and we had 5 of us going out for drinks.
Cousin volunteered driver that he would go and pick Sab up and take us all (Bob, Sab and I) out. Cousin and another guy Tom who meet us there all had a few drinks.
Alcohol or as Cousin puts it “ The devils mouth wash” was consumed and I was getting to chat with the boys.
It was getting late for Cousin and Tom so Cousin left me in he’s friends hands and went home.
We – being Bob, Sab and I kept on until stumps then went to the pub next door which was open for a few more hours. We were all talking and I was getting to know Sab. I was liking what I was hearing and seeing.
I still didn’t know if he was all that interested at that stage. I saw him looking at me a little but I mean we were chatting and laughing and generally having a good time.
Sab asked “When are you leaving?”
“Friday morning”
Bob pipes up “ You can’t leave on Friday! You have to stay for the weekend and we’ll all go out”
Sab agreed so I got on the phone and cancelled Fridays flight.
Sab was telling me about his family in Uganda and how he had gone over there and help build an orphanage then organised a group to go over without him and do it all again.
He had a video of it back at his house and he wanted to show it to me.
So the three of us went back to his house and we sat on the couch actually watching the video. Bob got up and went out to have a cigarette then Sab and I started to get cosy. We kissed and it felt nice. Really nice.
Between watching the video and kissing him we were getting a little closer with each other. Bob then walked in saw us then walked out and seemed to sober up a little, called a cab and left. I felt bad but there was no way I lead him on in any way.
So I stayed the night with Sab. And no we didn’t have sex. I was upfront about it and he said that’s fine. (Yeah – that’s what Eve said) So I really stuck to it.
So then the next night I found my self over there again and again and yes again.
This ladies and gentlemen has continued for the past two weeks.
It’s been really good. He’s taken me and introduced me to all of his friends, to which they had no idea and it was all very amusing seeing their reaction.
We got the questions and the “What are you going to do? Move up hear?”
To which we both laughed “Lets not go there” I said and we just laughed it off.
People were still asking me. I knew we had to talk about it but I didn’t want to think about it and I was just taking it day by day. That was until last Saturday night.
We went out to his friends house for dinner and drinks – which turned out to be lots of drinks, watching music videos, dancing around, talking, laughing and interrogation! ;))
It was very funny because Tanya and her partner Blake who are really great people were direct and to the point with their Questions. They pretty much made us or more me as Sab wanted to talk about the situation a day or two before it.
So Tanya and I talked. She told me that Sab’s Ex is defiantly out of the picture and 3 others including her all said she wasn’t a very nice girl.
Sab cleared it up that he had no ties with her but he stays friends with his ex girlfriends.
Well I still speak to my ex.
So anyway that night in our drunk states Sab leans over kissed me and said
“I want you to stay”
I was a little shocked he said it! I heard him say it but I wanted to hear him say it again
“What?”
“I want you to stay”
I kissed him thinking about it. As I was now in the position where I had to.
“Ok” – more kissing.
I said that we would have to discuss this when we are sober. So we did, and the question still stood and I still had the same answer.
So that’s where it is. I’m defiantly ready for a move, A new start is what I want.
It’s all happened so quickly but he’s pretty special.
Like everyone he has his good and bad points – but I figured that I haven’t met anyone like him.
His generous, caring, loving and I don’t want to go back home and think - what if?
We both want to give it a go and I’m moving up hear for a life change not only for him.

So that’s where it is. At the moment I’m looking for jobs and sending out resumes.
He’s not a Christian but I can see God work through him.
It’s going to be a big move and I won’t bring Damon up hear for about a month or two because it’s easier to get a place…

Next day…
I had a talk with Sab last night the more time I spend with him the more I fall for him.
To be able to move on with him I had to tell him about my insecurities.
He accepts me for me as I do him.
Well see how things go. It’s all a learning curve.
We went out for dinner last night for his brothers birthday. He’s brothers nice and it’s nice to see that they get along.

So I have to get off and go look for more work.

He can give me the warm and fuzzies, a pang in my stomach, tingles to the top of my head and down to my toes.
He said that he doesn't want to loose me as much as I don't want to loose him.

This is a complete lifestyle change for both of us.
We’ll just have to work at it.

Monday, February 05, 2007

so far...

Ok, kiddies beig that I am on the trusty laptop now i'm not forgetting a Big HUGE happy birthday to Scott for yesterday the 4th!

Being that I'm interstate at the moment and being kept indoors because of the rain etc - i'm thinking about leaving and going to see Spadadam.

Maybe my cousin if it's possiable.
the one with all the kids. But to tell you quite honestly - I'm over the whole kid thing. The kids hear are really good, extreamly good. But i'm just over it.

What do I want?? I don't know. I want to cry because I don't want to upset my other cousin because I can't afford to go see her.
I feel like I can't really relax hear. It's just.... I can relax but I dunno.
I love my cousin and his kids but I don't want to stay to long.

I'm going to book my flight to see spadadam & bron tomorrow.
I'm just so confused. I'm worring about the money it will all cost.

sigh.

I don't want to stress out about this crap.
i can't not pay my car or my phone or bills.

Friday, February 02, 2007

NEWS FLASH!!!!!

Flash flooding, torrential weather conditions and cyclone warning …. For where?
I’ll tell you where, THE PLACE WHERE I AM GOING FOR MY HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH. MY. GOD!
I’m just not meant to leave this house! The airport was underwater!
My cousin rang and said that there’s really nothing to do but sit inside and wait it out.
It’s the biggest downfall for 12 YEARS!

My holiday is now just hilarious.
Vietnam falls through – cos Nick cancelled.
Theme park fell through – couldn’t fit in with the package
Surfing sorta fallen through – cos there’s a Great White SHARK circulating the bay and the seas!
Now my interstate trip is on CYCLONE WATCH!!!!!!!!!!
UNBELIVABLE!!!!!
I just have to laugh because this is really ridicules !
Hilarious!
I was thinking about going to a island off the coast but now – maybe not. Just see how things turn out and just say yes to everything.
Why not! What have I got to loose!?

Holidays at last, at last holidays are hear ar last!!!!!

They better not go to quickly!
I fly outta hear and go to the sunny hot coast tomorrow morning.
Flight leaves at 6am.
This week was better from about tuesday or Wednesday night. That was when I think i stopped feeling so wound up from my brother.

I have to go now.
I don't know how much i'll be blogging in the next three weeks.
I'll have my mobile on but I doubt i'll answer any calls who aren't my friends outside work.
I just want to get away from it all.

Arr - bliss - Holidays, gotta luv them :)

Nick came back from his holidays.
He's back to being nice-ish. He's just another screwed up personality who does backflips from one extreame to another.
Oh well.

Yea! holidays!

I'm going to go color my "natural" red hair ;)