This is my budget

Money.
In my case the second it’s in my bank – it’s gone.
I’ve crunched some numbers and I have to buckle down.
I know I’ve heard myself say it beore but now I have actually put it down on paper and thought about things – if I don’t start now putting money aside for car rego I’ll be stuffed! As it is now this is how it looks.

Rent
Phone bill
Car rego
Weekly shopping/living
Petrol
Car repayments
Credit card repayments

Then I have
Ryans 18th next week
Brothers birthday in August (limit $30)
One wedding in September + Sabs birthday
Another wedding in October + I’m flying back for that so need spending money for hire car and food.
Then it’s November and then December you have Christmas and car rego.

I get $500 a week and it looks nice to look at but by the time I’ve taken out all I need to I have minus – about $-80
Back home I had two jobs hairdressing being the second. I could also do it from home.
I got buy because I got paid monthly in one job and got but on me other job through the week.
I can see a light at the end of all this but it’s going to take a very long time to get there.
I’ve got to stop buying un necessary stuff.
Like today. I’m off to the op shop I need to buy something “crazy” to where for this dance night on Friday night.
Sigh.
My cousins coming up in August – that’s more money. I have to have them all around for dinner. There’s $140 right there. I’ll have to feed 8or 9 kids 7 or 8 adults and that’s only one night!!! Put on a BBQ and have it at a park.
Sheesh.
This is my thoughts.
Also I need to get out and get involved in some sort of sport. I’m going to walk up the steep hill we have in town, that won’t cost anything. But if I can join a soccer club or something well soccer is $300 and there is also an expense doing something like that.
Do I sound down? I feel a little overwhelmed by it all but to look on the bright side I have about $200 coming back in tax in about a month or two.
God will work it out.
Yeah – it’ll be ok.


I have to go and uy some food.

cold

It's freezing. I'm in a big wooly jacket. under the covers and my face is cold.
It was the coldest day on record yesterday. Weather has gone crazy.
Not alot happening. I'm feeling a little like a frump but it'll go eventually.

Nothing on the house front - it's all up in the air with disscussions on where to buy.
What state etc.
better go.
My feet are cold.

Life is progressing at 100mph!

Well hear it is – it’s raining so much and so hard!
I’m using the dryer and in a jumper! This is Queensland!
Admitly I’m loving the change in weather. I was starting to hate the fine and 27 degrease days.

Last night Sab asked me if I would sign a mortgage with him and buy a house.
Wow. I didn’t know what to say!! - I know it will happen but it’s seeming to happen sooner rather then later when I thought it would. Where he is at the moment it would be a good idea….
Wow.
Love him with all my heart – we just signed another 6 month lease on the rented house and that was a big thing for me, just to put my name on the lease!

So, yeah – that’s what’s going on with me.
I turn 26 in 11 days… Usually I get excited tell everyone and do something for a week leading and a week afterward but hear and now I just want to let it slide.
Ryan has his 18 the day before and that’s pretty big then Sab has a business thing around the same time and I just don’t want to take any light away from them.
I am very proud of Sab.

I better go – more to write in journal.

Today I got my hair cut - my long waist length copper curley hair has been cropped and colored into a brown (soon to go copper/red cos I don't like the color).
It's cut to just above my shoulders and I like it.

Trying to do stuff like tennis, dancing but haven't got anything totally me yet. Shame soccer was booked out. Maybe next season... hope so.

I'm sitting in my new jacket. It's not really that cold but it rained today and I haven't worn it yet so it's comfortable wearing just a singlet underneath it.

I'd like a dog but I know that they are such a tie down and when Sab and I want to just go out and not worrie about it being lonely and stuff - it wouldn't be fair.

better go.

It's my day off today.
Sab leaves for four days tomorrow. He's taking all the boys so I'll have the house to myself.
I'm thinking I'll have a BBQ or just my cousins over for dinner.
Maybe i'll go have a hit of tennis...

I better go. Battrie on laptop is low and I need to go do the weekly shop - keeping in mind that i'm only really shopping for me this week.

homesick ......

Tonight I really miss Damon. He would lick away my tears, I’d cuddle him and he would make me feel so much better. I’m really homesick at the moment.
Sab does all he can but I just have to get over it and it will go eventually.

I’m going to go and get involved in tennis.
It’s such a small town up hear. Sab seems to know a lot of people.
He’s ex is coming back on Wednesday next week. She asked him if they could catch up. Sab replied that yes you can see US. She doesn’t bother me in the slightest.
I know he loves me and he shows me that he does too.

Works good, Everyone back home tell me that they miss me and it’s just not the same without me. Supposedly now there is no teamwork and no real support system.
It’s a shame because the support really is needed there but it’s nice to be missed and asked about.
I often think about when I did the volunteer work with the “streeties”. It gives me hope that I can make a difference. They did in my life. Everyone of them.

I can’t sleep. It’s about 11pm.

I booked my flight home for my best friends wedding in October.
It’ll be soooo good to catch up and see everyone again.
I better go and try and sleep.

There has to be more.....

I just need something. I want to help. I want to make a difference.
It's all good but there has to be more.
I need to give something of myself.

I've blimped out due to alchole and coffee -Vanallia Latte. Mmmmm.....

Hmmm.