so far...

Ok, kiddies beig that I am on the trusty laptop now i'm not forgetting a Big HUGE happy birthday to Scott for yesterday the 4th!

Being that I'm interstate at the moment and being kept indoors because of the rain etc - i'm thinking about leaving and going to see Spadadam.

Maybe my cousin if it's possiable.
the one with all the kids. But to tell you quite honestly - I'm over the whole kid thing. The kids hear are really good, extreamly good. But i'm just over it.

What do I want?? I don't know. I want to cry because I don't want to upset my other cousin because I can't afford to go see her.
I feel like I can't really relax hear. It's just.... I can relax but I dunno.
I love my cousin and his kids but I don't want to stay to long.

I'm going to book my flight to see spadadam & bron tomorrow.
I'm just so confused. I'm worring about the money it will all cost.

sigh.

I don't want to stress out about this crap.
i can't not pay my car or my phone or bills.