I don't regret the things i've done but those I didn't do --Live with no regrets -

So I pushed in the numbers to his room on the intercom.
It rang and again – I really didn’t think he would even be home being that it was almost midnight on a Friday night. It kept ringing – It picked up
“Hi Geek” He sounded surprised.
“Hi”
“Hold on, I’ll come down”
Oh, His got company. His brother maybe…. Or another girl…..
I waited in the Foyer. Being that I had just come back from my work party I was looking rather nice in my new dress and kinda nicely done up.
He came down.
He showed me over to the couches where we sat and talked.
“You look nice, where have you been?”
I told him about my night out.
“So, Who’s upstairs?”
“Just a friend”
“Just a friend – female?”
“Yeah – but it’s not like that”
“ Yeah right – I don’t care”
“It’s not-“
“Is she from church?”
“Yeah”
“Well I better go now”
“What? Why? Don’t be silly – stay and talk for a bit”
“You’ve got a girl upstairs waiting for you and I’m hear come to screw you brains out and it’s not going to happen”
He smiled “Don’t say that… She’s not waiting for me”
(Yeah I know the word “screw” is soooo crass/dirty and crude but seemed fitting. In Heinz sight I should of said “hear I am thinking about seducing you –but oh well)
Hmm.
So we talked Turns out he’s got some 23 year old girl from his church lying on his bed (on top I was told rather then IN - whatever)- staying over- but it’s supposedly - not like that. Yeah – Right! I know what that girl is thinking and don’t tell me she’s not at least hoping/wanting it to happen! Espcially when she’s STAYING THERE!!!
“I’ve gotta go this isn’t right”
“Why?”
“She’s waiting for you and you down hear talking to me”
“She’s not waiting for me”
”Yeah – she is” I picked up my things and headed for the door with him following behind me. I thought that was funny – he walked me outside and we said good bye kiss on cheek – A group of young girls walked out and he saw one he knew – again from church! OMG!
When that crowd left we were still standing at the entrance.
“Everything seems to be very Churchy tonight”
“Yeah” he agreed.
We looked at each other and I was tempted to kiss him something fierce.
Something that would keep him wanting more.
Again – another kiss on the cheek.
I smiled “bye”
“see ya”
I walked off - he watched me. When I turned around he was only just walking through the doors.
Maybe I left a slight impression after all….
Ok – maybe it’s not the best impression to leave but it was only a few weeks ago someone was begging me to come round…..
So yeah.
I wouldn’t do that for anyone else – I mean it may sound “wrong” but I kinda look at it like we just have great sex and that’s it really. I mean – I don’t want to sleep with lots of people – just lots with the one person…. And with him it great so….. Yeah.


My best friend Thea came back today – I hope I don’t get to tired while she’s hear.
I hate feeling tired.