....yeah

I deleated Eves number - again. The only way for me to get it again is if he contacts me. Yeah.

Christmas is comming soon.
yeah. Great.

I don't look forward to christmas. I like the lead up but this year- it's empty.
I can look forward to my painful brother screaming, yelling abuse at me and consistantly causing me grief because I don't see my father and I don't pretend to like him.
My mum was talking to one of her friends who's daughter is getting married. Mum said "I don't think my daugher would want her father to walk her down the isale, if it was up to her he wouldn't even be invited!"
She told me this and I said "Dam straight. I knew that when I was a kid"
"who would you get to walk you down the isal?"
I think I would walk myself down or - well, it's too far away, I don't think I should even thinking it but sometimes you just do.
No street works.
I feel like that song " So this is Christmas, and what have you done?"
Not alot.
I suggest I go and watch St Theresa the movie again.
Give to those who have not that much.
I love big gatherings.