Confrontation

My hearts thumping as I await Nicks email. He said he replied to mine.
He said that it pretty much says don’t send texts / emails to him.
….
I got it, it went like this

“Relax and please stop sending these inane emails & sms's - they are not appreciated.
You have not done anything you not being rejected but I'm thinking we are so different I'm going to leave it at that”
Nick

Tears roll down my face. This morning he was in the kitchenette at work and I confronted him. He said “it’s getting to heavy….. I think we should just keep any friendship at work”
I looked at him.
“Really?? Is it something I’ve done?”
“No…I can’t talk about it…..not hear not now…..not at work….”
I stood there in partial shock that I couldn’t believe what I was hearing!
I think now – he was always talking about doing things together in the future.
I didn’t make him stay on that phone for hours on end.
Yeah.
I think he liked me.
And a part of me liked him more then a friend but I knew that I didn’t want to cross that line because I didn’t want to get hurt and I like the single life.
I wasn’t counting on being hurt more then what I thought was possible.

Deep down I know that’s what most likely happened. There’s no other reason if he’s telling the truth.
I think what he meant by “we are so different” our morals maybe. With me being a Christian and trying to do the right thing and he who isn’t but he does good things.

I’m going to give him space. I’m not going to email him again but I wanted to send a last email to him. So I did. I just didn’t want him to think that I felt any different towards him.
I just wonder if he decides to change his mind… I really doubt he will but if he does decide to reveal all and he tells me how he feels and if it’s the fact that he wants a relationship…. Well I’m looking into it WAY to much.

Things really don’t make sense. But … they do add up.