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Well, iv'e come back from church and I haven't been for awhile but I felt like I had to go back. I've been going on and off this year.
I think i'll go every week again. So much I feel is going to happen and I need the spiritual support and guidence from my church community.
Sitting, listening, singing - I felt overcome by a warm feeling only to which I describe as loving,warm not drug induced in anyway.
The need i've been feeling to have by another person was forfilled.
I was sitting between a old small group member and an church aquantince.
I felt like I'm very single but in no way am I alone.
i don't need another person to fill anything. I've always knowen that but I guess once and awhile you think, well, it would be nice.
This is usually after I had a night simalar to last Wednesday, but I'm glad i didn't give into anyone and continue to be now happy.
I going to go play my guitar and enjoy just being me.