Yes I complain lots when tired.
Girley man and I were just talking.
He knew I wasn't myself.
I'm not myself. I'm not happy. I have the awful woman sitting next to me tomorrow and I'm already getting heart pulpations.
Hopefully it will be ok. I'll pray about it.
I feel like.... I.... I....I don't know.
I think i'm dealing with change. I really miss girly man at work. I walk in to work and the atmosphere's different.
I'm also...feeling....having... abondment issues. Everyone leaves.
This always makes tears spring to my eyes.
I feel like it will be like this forever. Just knowing that things may not last.
They will leave. I guess i'm thinking like this because of....Girly man for one.
The fact Eve's shagging another chick. My best friend just hasn't got time for me. My other best friend I feel like were going different directions.....
I haven't gone to hurch in about 5 or 6 weeks!
There's talk around the office that I don't want to be a part of so I try and just stay away from any gossip.
I guess.... I want intimacy. Closeness, But hears the thing I don't want commitment.
It scares me. when I thought Eve wanted that I talked myself into it - when really,I was terrified!
I want my cake and I want to eat it too.
I want to cry.
I want to cry because I have that awful, horriable woman sitting next to me tomorrow,
I miss Girly man.
My best friend dosen't care.
Every man has left me in my life.
I have lots of bills and my next pay is gone beore it's come.
My shoulder is sore again.
My knee is also sore.
I'm tired.
I'm alone.
God help me tomorrow.
I feel so dejected.
I won't let myself get close to anyone anymore. When I do - they leave.
I'll pick myself up. This won't last long. Maybe a little longer because it's already been all today and tomorrows already making me sad.I might just go and have a cry.
He knew I wasn't myself.
I'm not myself. I'm not happy. I have the awful woman sitting next to me tomorrow and I'm already getting heart pulpations.
Hopefully it will be ok. I'll pray about it.
I feel like.... I.... I....I don't know.
I think i'm dealing with change. I really miss girly man at work. I walk in to work and the atmosphere's different.
I'm also...feeling....having... abondment issues. Everyone leaves.
This always makes tears spring to my eyes.
I feel like it will be like this forever. Just knowing that things may not last.
They will leave. I guess i'm thinking like this because of....Girly man for one.
The fact Eve's shagging another chick. My best friend just hasn't got time for me. My other best friend I feel like were going different directions.....
I haven't gone to hurch in about 5 or 6 weeks!
There's talk around the office that I don't want to be a part of so I try and just stay away from any gossip.
I guess.... I want intimacy. Closeness, But hears the thing I don't want commitment.
It scares me. when I thought Eve wanted that I talked myself into it - when really,I was terrified!
I want my cake and I want to eat it too.
I want to cry.
I want to cry because I have that awful, horriable woman sitting next to me tomorrow,
I miss Girly man.
My best friend dosen't care.
Every man has left me in my life.
I have lots of bills and my next pay is gone beore it's come.
My shoulder is sore again.
My knee is also sore.
I'm tired.
I'm alone.
God help me tomorrow.
I feel so dejected.
I won't let myself get close to anyone anymore. When I do - they leave.
I'll pick myself up. This won't last long. Maybe a little longer because it's already been all today and tomorrows already making me sad.I might just go and have a cry.
posted by kaz at 7:39 PM
4 Comments:
One of my bi problems with my last job Kaz was that I saw people I worked with before that I got along with leave. First it was Matt, then Jason and then it was Anthony I was last of the old crew except Dave but it was not the same without my old pals. I guess what I am saying is I can sympathize with you
the beginning should read One of my big... I was not coming out of the closet :)
hahahha, he said "bi problems".... Anyway, commitment is overrated. Yes. That's what I wanted to say. Don't be sad though. Life is beautiful. And the birds, they are a-singin'.
thanks guys - yeah no commitment is good commitment. Maybe I just need a great one night stand.... Yes it may be what I need shame I can't do it again.
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