Moving out???
WOW!
I spoke to Deb today and turns out that Mk will be moving out of his house!
I knew it would eventually happen but she said within 4 to 8 weeks!
What does this mean? I could take over the lease on the house!
This is good and not so good – but if it happens, I want to take it over or about six months. Just so I can get away and feel happy. I’ll be by myself – but I don’t care. As long as I’m away from brother – I don’t care.
That’s if it all happens. They could always change their minds.
I’m reassessing what I want to do in life – short term. Maybe a holiday rather then months away on end…
I’d be further away from work, Eve, church but I’d have my own place, sanity and closer to Mon. It’s only six months or so.
I was tired today. Cutting myself off from Eve – He doesn’t really want me. Besides or sex…. Then again I really don’t know. What I think I do know is, I highly doubt he will contact me again. I really don’t think he will.
I just think he’s over it. He’s got a lot of worries with his ex at the moment – I’d just add to his problems.
I feel like no one really wants me. I hate my ex for saying that “one person will always love the other more – that’s how it is”
Do you agree??
This comment killed a part of me – now I just think no one will ever really love me.
Me. This puts a rock in my throat and my jaw tightens.
This will make me cry.
I want to cut Eve off. He won’t ever really feel for me.
I don’t know :(
I’m not looking for complements. This is just how I feel right now.
I spoke to Deb today and turns out that Mk will be moving out of his house!
I knew it would eventually happen but she said within 4 to 8 weeks!
What does this mean? I could take over the lease on the house!
This is good and not so good – but if it happens, I want to take it over or about six months. Just so I can get away and feel happy. I’ll be by myself – but I don’t care. As long as I’m away from brother – I don’t care.
That’s if it all happens. They could always change their minds.
I’m reassessing what I want to do in life – short term. Maybe a holiday rather then months away on end…
I’d be further away from work, Eve, church but I’d have my own place, sanity and closer to Mon. It’s only six months or so.
I was tired today. Cutting myself off from Eve – He doesn’t really want me. Besides or sex…. Then again I really don’t know. What I think I do know is, I highly doubt he will contact me again. I really don’t think he will.
I just think he’s over it. He’s got a lot of worries with his ex at the moment – I’d just add to his problems.
I feel like no one really wants me. I hate my ex for saying that “one person will always love the other more – that’s how it is”
Do you agree??
This comment killed a part of me – now I just think no one will ever really love me.
Me. This puts a rock in my throat and my jaw tightens.
This will make me cry.
I want to cut Eve off. He won’t ever really feel for me.
I don’t know :(
I’m not looking for complements. This is just how I feel right now.
posted by kaz at 6:45 PM
3 Comments:
hey dont worry... this is how it is. I have been following ur blog for a while. whenever i feel down I just come to c wat u hv written tdy. Its just that it happens with everyone..I am a gal of around ur age...more or less like u with all confusions. Its just that u have to learn to let go things...bt its really hard... still thats the best option. Concentrate more on ur career, ur books.. n the things which gives u more happiness n satisfaction rather than the ppl who make u feel sick or less.
Go for it Kaz you will be happier in the long run.
Hey anonymous - I thought only two people read my blog! I guess it is on the net... I think I forget that sometimes.
Thanks Scott :) & Anon
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