My number.....

So how over guys am I ?
Yeah – I went out to a BBQ tonight and then the same crowd went down to the pool hall. I got talking to this guy a friend of Thea’s sister and he was nice and we got chatting. He was about to leave when he said
“So when am I going to see you next?”
“um – New Years maybe”
“Can I have your number?”
“yeah sure”
I never give out my number but being that he’s a friend of a friend I figured it’s safe.
He won’t call and I’m in two minds weather I want him to or not.

Mk went a little mad at me today in regards to the texts that Jess sent.
He said I should of just expressed my disgust in what he was doing and ended it then and there but I just keep texting back. I know I should of just stopped it and done it.
If there is ever a next time I will.
Then I got my pay out of the till and he was like “just pay yourself then” he was annoyed that I did that too.
Great.
I wish I didn’t care what he thought of me.
I guess I get a little to caring about the nice men in my life.
I drove home crying.
I really hated the fact that he thought I was playing with Jess.
I wasn’t. Yet I really should have just ended it.
I’ll know if there is ever a next time.
I don’t want a next time.

I’m tired.
Sleep now.