Issues?
My best friend has this thing for a guy. They have known each other for about 8 or 9 years.
He likes her – as I found out last night.
They went out briefly 8 years ago. First love.
He has waited for her for 2 years and told me last night he would wait another 1.
I didn’t think those guys existed in today’s society!
He loves her.
I got all choked up.
I must have just had a vacant look on my face because he told me everything then said “So now your turn. Spill”
“Me?”
“Yeah, you look like you’re a million miles away.”
I managed a smile while I was crying on the inside. That feeling of all your insides twisting and lodging in your throat.
“ Me? - No –it has nothing to do with Thea.”
“Yeah – spill”
“No, It’s not the right time, place – or person – sorry”
With that I turned around and walked off. I didn't look back. I couldn't.
I didn’t want to look like awful person after just hearing this guy pour his heart out to me about my best friend then asks about me.
No.
I’m not opening up to some one – it just creates closeness and it’s not a good idea especially to him.
So without crying in the pool hall or in front of him I just said goodbye and walked out. I lasted half way to my car. Tears welled up and spilled out. I couldn’t stop them.
It confronted me with one of – my main issues I have with men.
Before we went to see him – (he works at the pool hall)
Thea and I saw “the holiday” with Cameron Diaz. It was a chick flick and I walked out wanting a hug or something. Thea said the same thing.
I didn’t like it.
I had a dream that Dave was shorter. Because he was always stooping.
I dreamt that we had sex once and I got Pregnant.
I wanted to get rid of it but because I kinda liked him I wasn’t sure and then I was having to break the news to people and I hated it and I was really in two minds about what I wanted. A single life or to have a kid. And I remember thinking this would end my life.
Dave then wanted it and I was all like, I don’t know.
I wasn’t sure.
I was VERY happy to wake up.
And realise that’s a dream – in reality I’m single and have no one.
And no one will ever feel like that about me.
By the way did I mention that looks like Jack will be marrying his girlfriend? The one he cheated on with me. (I didn’t know about her till after – of course!)
Other old friends are getting married in Feb and I think Eve’s still with his Girlfriend.
Thea and Tim are in love and so is just about EVERYONE around me.
Good Morning.
Vallum anyone?
He likes her – as I found out last night.
They went out briefly 8 years ago. First love.
He has waited for her for 2 years and told me last night he would wait another 1.
I didn’t think those guys existed in today’s society!
He loves her.
I got all choked up.
I must have just had a vacant look on my face because he told me everything then said “So now your turn. Spill”
“Me?”
“Yeah, you look like you’re a million miles away.”
I managed a smile while I was crying on the inside. That feeling of all your insides twisting and lodging in your throat.
“ Me? - No –it has nothing to do with Thea.”
“Yeah – spill”
“No, It’s not the right time, place – or person – sorry”
With that I turned around and walked off. I didn't look back. I couldn't.
I didn’t want to look like awful person after just hearing this guy pour his heart out to me about my best friend then asks about me.
No.
I’m not opening up to some one – it just creates closeness and it’s not a good idea especially to him.
So without crying in the pool hall or in front of him I just said goodbye and walked out. I lasted half way to my car. Tears welled up and spilled out. I couldn’t stop them.
It confronted me with one of – my main issues I have with men.
Before we went to see him – (he works at the pool hall)
Thea and I saw “the holiday” with Cameron Diaz. It was a chick flick and I walked out wanting a hug or something. Thea said the same thing.
I didn’t like it.
I had a dream that Dave was shorter. Because he was always stooping.
I dreamt that we had sex once and I got Pregnant.
I wanted to get rid of it but because I kinda liked him I wasn’t sure and then I was having to break the news to people and I hated it and I was really in two minds about what I wanted. A single life or to have a kid. And I remember thinking this would end my life.
Dave then wanted it and I was all like, I don’t know.
I wasn’t sure.
I was VERY happy to wake up.
And realise that’s a dream – in reality I’m single and have no one.
And no one will ever feel like that about me.
By the way did I mention that looks like Jack will be marrying his girlfriend? The one he cheated on with me. (I didn’t know about her till after – of course!)
Other old friends are getting married in Feb and I think Eve’s still with his Girlfriend.
Thea and Tim are in love and so is just about EVERYONE around me.
Good Morning.
Vallum anyone?
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