crap.

So brother comes into the room when I’m talking on the phone and starts yelling at me so much to the fact that Raff who was on the other end could hear extreamly clearly.I retaliated. I told him if he speaks to me like that again I will “slap him so hard across the face” – He continued. I hung up the phone got up and started after and he locked him self in his room. I scream at him “don’t fricken talk to me, don’t even look at me!!!”
Then I thought I’m TWENTY FIVE years old and I’m acting like a 4 year old! I retaliated which is what he is wanting. What he does.
He verbally abuses me every day! Numerous times a day! I HATE HIM! I really do.

Sigh. I wish I could leave. I don’t need this. He makes me into someone I don’t like. I have to get out. I have to. I need to.
What sparked it all off? May you ask. There’s abspestos I the backyard and it’s the door to the shed. It’s been broken for years but because brother “fixed” it by putting duct tape over the split – Yeah that’s meant to hold it together. He doesn’t EVER do ANYTHING completely.
So I open it the other day to get out the lawn mower and supposedly I broke it. I don’t think I did, BECAUSE it’s been BROKEN for YEARS! Also I don’t recall breaking through any duct tape. He went beserk. WHATEVER.

Sigh. I’m tired.

It was a late night last night. It was great to see girly man again.
His partner is really down to earth, like girly man really. She’s really nice and very open. You can feel really comfortable with them.
There was a lot of laughing and talking and we decided that were all going out to the zoo in three weeks with his kids too and probably girly mans best friend.
Nick was funny. He makes me laugh! Some of the conversations…. :))
Girly Man said that he describes me as “ prim and proper” – ha… ha – hmm – I guess one of our conversations was about some girls sexual habbits.
I just didn’t go into what I do and don’t do – hey – some things have to be left up to the imagination!
They were talking about sex out doors and things like that. I just smile and don’t disclose too too much.
They knew about the whole Eve thing but …not everything… ;))

I guess I just – I don’t know. If I was talking one on one I’d maybe disclose more but I just like listening to others :)
I think if I had a boyfriend in that situation I wouldn’t care but because I don’t it’s different.

So I better go it’s getting late and I need to sleep.
Bye bye