Tomorrows a big day...
I rang the night shift guy “Owl” at work last night. I awoke feeling really sick at 1.10am
I asked him to call me in case me alarm didn’t go off or I turned it off without realising. So he did and I went to work only to come home three hours later.
I think I ate something a little wrong the night before.
I felt sooo guilty leaving because they were understaffed but then I figured I
A) Can’t push myself or I risk getting really sick.
B) Them being understaffed shouldn’t end with me. They can pull together for a day and get through it.
I was still going to go to Mk’s but I rang and asked if the other “deb2” could stay on and she could, so I went two sleep and now hear I am.
I’m not feeling guilty because I do feel sick.
Tomorrows my Birthday! Happy Birthday to me!!!
I got a box of chocolates and a card today from “Owl” today, which is a really nice thought.
I didn’t expect anything maybe an apple but chocolates are a nice thought.
He said he was going to buy apples but thought nah can't do that - Funny thing is i'd eat the apples but the thought means so much more to me :))
When I get Chocolates I tend to give them away. I don’t eat lollies, chocolates or deep fried food or fast food. I don’t like it. I'll share them around tomorrow.
Tomorrow I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to do anything for my birthday.
Brother is starting to cause trouble again. “Ring father, Ring father” Like a two year old!
For my birthday I’d just like to spend it alone.
If mum came down she and Brother would argue an I’m already dreading brothers yearly dam arguments about “Call father!!! Call father!!!” I’d rather have him stay out of my life. Just stay out of it. We have said our peace and that feels better but now I can accept it and I’d just like him to stay out of every aspect of my life. My choice.
My birthday is just going to equal arguments.
I would just prefer to lie in my bed and watch M*A*S*H
I’m off to do that now. See my non-existent social life.
I’d like to have gone out tonight and seen Mr Philosopher tonight – I still may if I get more sleep. Just to give him a promised video I took ages ago.
He’s a sweet guy.
Breath In – tomorrows Eves hearing. God I pray that it all works out or him. Breath out.
I feel anxious for him.
Trust in God and he will work it out.
I don’t know If I should message him – I know I will and I’ll keep praying for him.
It’s what I can do.
Is it ironic that I’m a Christian that is praying for a man to get through tomorrow, praying for him and I’ve slept with him many a times. Praying after doing things that we shouldn’t of – yet I pray for him whole heartedly and God will listen.
I guess that’s why he’s so forgiving.
This isn’t preaching – It’s just how I feel and what I’m doing.
Time to go.
I asked him to call me in case me alarm didn’t go off or I turned it off without realising. So he did and I went to work only to come home three hours later.
I think I ate something a little wrong the night before.
I felt sooo guilty leaving because they were understaffed but then I figured I
A) Can’t push myself or I risk getting really sick.
B) Them being understaffed shouldn’t end with me. They can pull together for a day and get through it.
I was still going to go to Mk’s but I rang and asked if the other “deb2” could stay on and she could, so I went two sleep and now hear I am.
I’m not feeling guilty because I do feel sick.
Tomorrows my Birthday! Happy Birthday to me!!!
I got a box of chocolates and a card today from “Owl” today, which is a really nice thought.
I didn’t expect anything maybe an apple but chocolates are a nice thought.
He said he was going to buy apples but thought nah can't do that - Funny thing is i'd eat the apples but the thought means so much more to me :))
When I get Chocolates I tend to give them away. I don’t eat lollies, chocolates or deep fried food or fast food. I don’t like it. I'll share them around tomorrow.
Tomorrow I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to do anything for my birthday.
Brother is starting to cause trouble again. “Ring father, Ring father” Like a two year old!
For my birthday I’d just like to spend it alone.
If mum came down she and Brother would argue an I’m already dreading brothers yearly dam arguments about “Call father!!! Call father!!!” I’d rather have him stay out of my life. Just stay out of it. We have said our peace and that feels better but now I can accept it and I’d just like him to stay out of every aspect of my life. My choice.
My birthday is just going to equal arguments.
I would just prefer to lie in my bed and watch M*A*S*H
I’m off to do that now. See my non-existent social life.
I’d like to have gone out tonight and seen Mr Philosopher tonight – I still may if I get more sleep. Just to give him a promised video I took ages ago.
He’s a sweet guy.
Breath In – tomorrows Eves hearing. God I pray that it all works out or him. Breath out.
I feel anxious for him.
Trust in God and he will work it out.
I don’t know If I should message him – I know I will and I’ll keep praying for him.
It’s what I can do.
Is it ironic that I’m a Christian that is praying for a man to get through tomorrow, praying for him and I’ve slept with him many a times. Praying after doing things that we shouldn’t of – yet I pray for him whole heartedly and God will listen.
I guess that’s why he’s so forgiving.
This isn’t preaching – It’s just how I feel and what I’m doing.
Time to go.
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