Old Friends

I Blog to much.

That said. – An old male friend of mine wants to catch up talk and drink.
That’s good but he’s got a girlfriend.3 years or something like that. He was one of my best friends in my teenage years.
We grew apart but always kept in touch. He declared his love for me when we were 15 or 16 but I said no. So we stayed friends.
The last time I saw him was in Feb when he gave me a massage which he has done before but this time was different. I felt a little – wrong.
He massaged my neck and back - that was fine but then he got me to sit up – ok – then he turned me around. This is where it became “funny” I was now sitting in my bra facing him. I was soooo tired and felt sick and sore. Little did I know at that time I had Glandular Fever ragging through my body. I trusted him until that point. That was so wrong. His Girlfriend was at work and it all just felt wrong.
I pulled up the towel and he said “kaz, were old friends”
I haven’t seen him since then. We just dropped contact again.
I felt wrong. Annoyed/angry at him for doing so. I couldn’t believe that I trusted him and I fele really sick.
I don’t know. He didn’t mention his girlfriend in his email. I made a point of asking about her.
Sigh.
Why??? Why??? Why???

Eve hasn’t contacted me. That’s probably over now. Sigh.
I pray for him and his situation.
I care about him. I wish I didn’t.

I have to go to bed.