Ask and you shall recieve

I've downed a "Ned Kelly Red" soda wine stuff, It REALLY HOT, And I'm feeling...Tired.
I worked hairdressing today - which was good, I look forward to going.

Well. What a week!
I have meet and had really interesting conversations with people.
I'm feeling great and just happy being myself.
completely myself.
I'm following my gut feeling with a lot of things.
I'm feeling...Adventurous.
Yes it's the travel bug.
I'm trying to save so I can travel in about a years time. Even if it's just for a month.
I may have to sell the car but it's a while off yet.

Arr ... Just jumped under a freezing cold shower- Nice.

My time spent with Eve made me realise that maybe a small part of me will allow me to enjoy having someone hanging around - so to speak - Is it stupid that I just had a thought that A small man Hanging on the back of my shower door just "Hanging around" - I'm smiling and shaking my head, LOL "Hanging around" hehe. Oh - the alcohol may be kicking in a little :))

So I decide to pray to God about it.
He's the only one who knows how I feel, why I feel it and understands me.
So I decided that the first time I'm going to pray that I meet some one.
He gave me the EXACT dog a asked for, helped me at work TWICE when I asked in desperation when I needed him, there will always be what happened overseas and more recently how I became to be in the right place at the exact moment when Steve's cousin needed support.
Every time I have asked he has listened and I received. Every time.
Your thinking ask for money?? I have and Through his blessing I have got it.
Enough to get me through and to have enough for what I needed.
So I decide that I want to get to know people, not to jump in and have a relationship with them but just people who I can relate to and have fun with without it becoming difficult.
Maz - good example - jealous girlfriend equals - can't have other girls as friends even if things are innocent.

So anyway, I have been quite busy this week.
I've been going out to have lunch with a friend fi, catching up with "Top Hat", had dinner with Rusty and a cousin from my fathers side and his wife and going to performances of poets and musicians.
It's been really great! I come home all inspired and sit on my bed and play "josh" till I fall asleep.
I've meet heaps of people, and I'm not looking for a relationship - just someone who doesn't want to Bonk my brains out and we can still have a good time with!! :))

I've been reading, and a little writing. I met this guy, Ian - at one of the performances.
We were both there alone and he struck up conversation. Turns out he was thinking about doing some open mic.
After a while he got up and was really quite good. He asked for my number - I gave it to him cos he seemed like a genuine type of guy.

I caught up with him on Thursday for abit at another open mic performance. He on the spur of the moment decided to jump up and was great! A random guy came to him and said "That was a great it deserves a beer" !!! Ian was chuffed and at the end of the night I left him talking to these people who were hanging of his every word.
I said good bye to him and Top Hat who was also there.

Ian wants to read my writing. Songs, poetry just some of what I write.
I can't seem to bring myself to do it. It's so basic, simple, sounds like something a twelve year old would write. Yes it has flowers, love, rain, shadows, "walking in the rain" - I just re read it and think - Nah... It's immature writing. It hasn't grown up. It hasn't even reached puberty!
When I re read it I think - "how stupid!" usually tear it up or scribble out the majority of it's content.
I didn't put out my zine for this very fact. I've taken things out and added others in I want it to go out before a deadline I made for my self. June 30. A day after my 25th birthday.

I was thinking about getting a tattoo today. A small mystic looking cross in the middle of my back.
I mentioned it to a client and he's response was to look at me confused and say
"You don't seem to be someone with a tattoo"
Hmm. Didn't really know how to take that one.
He was a 63 year old man if that has anything to do with it.
I'm thinking about getting a photo airbrushed and put up on my wall.
That's ok I guess - I'm thinking it may look a little wired to those who come into my room and see an A3 size half naked me air brushed picture on the wall...
I just think it would be liberating. My thought is your young once - why not??
Airbrush out imperfections, enhance where needed.... It's something I want to do for myself.
I will do it - I just have to take the photo and give it to the guy. I've seen his stuff and he does a good job.

This is a very long post.