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Sheesh! I haven’t posted in 8 days and I really missed it.
I wrote in my pen to paper diary but it’s just not the same. I’ve been on a roller coaster with everything. Mk my hairdressing boss insulted me and pretty much said I had no idea what I was doing.
Now I know this is not true it’s just that he was watching me and the guy I was cutting was a friend of his, I had to cut while standing on tiptoes and I still couldn’t reach the front of his head! He had sores on his head and he flinched at every touch near that side of his head. He had a cow lick at the front of his hairline and I just knew when I was cutting thinking that I just couldn’t get around him. It wasn’t the way I usually cut hair.
So Mk and his GF asked “Where did you go to trade school??” Insinuating that it must have been crap. (It was but it’s been 6 years!)
I felt like crap.
I felt like I let him down and he was annoyed and disappointed in me.
I felt terrible. I’ve been told that I’ve given people the best haircut they ever had and I just try and do what they want.
Then I get a message from Eve who had been acting very strangely lately and he said “sorry for the late notice but have to cancel tomorrow can’t find someone to cover my shift” –The first thought that went through my head was “you knew about this for two months and you leave it till now to find a replacement??!!”
So I thought- great. I’ve been let down by a friend. So I felt utterly guttered about work and then Nick on top of that – then Girly man came and was just a little down with moving interstate and had heaps to do so he was telling me about that.
I came home wrote it down in my diary and cried. And cried.
Then I called Nat and he picked me up.
A) if my boss had a real problem with me, he wouldn’t have kept me for over a year and a half
B) A lot of people have just leat Nicks work in the past week leaving them understaffed.
So I understood. I still felt bad about work but I kinda understood with Nick.
Eve came in and got a haircut 2 Saturdays ago. A part of me still wants to go over and get a random shag but …. Probably not a good idea.
It would feel sooooo good tho…..
No. Better not.
So that’s where I’m at. I’ve walked the 1000 steps a couple of times and that’s been good. Tiering but good.
So emotionally I’ve felt wrung out.
Now I feel… hesistant.
I’m afraid Mk will still not be happy with my work.
I spoke to Nick last night and I’m putting it down to him having “weird” moments.
I wrote in my pen to paper diary but it’s just not the same. I’ve been on a roller coaster with everything. Mk my hairdressing boss insulted me and pretty much said I had no idea what I was doing.
Now I know this is not true it’s just that he was watching me and the guy I was cutting was a friend of his, I had to cut while standing on tiptoes and I still couldn’t reach the front of his head! He had sores on his head and he flinched at every touch near that side of his head. He had a cow lick at the front of his hairline and I just knew when I was cutting thinking that I just couldn’t get around him. It wasn’t the way I usually cut hair.
So Mk and his GF asked “Where did you go to trade school??” Insinuating that it must have been crap. (It was but it’s been 6 years!)
I felt like crap.
I felt like I let him down and he was annoyed and disappointed in me.
I felt terrible. I’ve been told that I’ve given people the best haircut they ever had and I just try and do what they want.
Then I get a message from Eve who had been acting very strangely lately and he said “sorry for the late notice but have to cancel tomorrow can’t find someone to cover my shift” –The first thought that went through my head was “you knew about this for two months and you leave it till now to find a replacement??!!”
So I thought- great. I’ve been let down by a friend. So I felt utterly guttered about work and then Nick on top of that – then Girly man came and was just a little down with moving interstate and had heaps to do so he was telling me about that.
I came home wrote it down in my diary and cried. And cried.
Then I called Nat and he picked me up.
A) if my boss had a real problem with me, he wouldn’t have kept me for over a year and a half
B) A lot of people have just leat Nicks work in the past week leaving them understaffed.
So I understood. I still felt bad about work but I kinda understood with Nick.
Eve came in and got a haircut 2 Saturdays ago. A part of me still wants to go over and get a random shag but …. Probably not a good idea.
It would feel sooooo good tho…..
No. Better not.
So that’s where I’m at. I’ve walked the 1000 steps a couple of times and that’s been good. Tiering but good.
So emotionally I’ve felt wrung out.
Now I feel… hesistant.
I’m afraid Mk will still not be happy with my work.
I spoke to Nick last night and I’m putting it down to him having “weird” moments.
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