Tonight
I have to say. I'm feeling... a little ... well i'm coping.
I feel like my stomach is in a knot.
My brother comes home from work in about ten or fifteen minutes. A shudder goes down my arms and my chest tightens. My heart thumps. I have to get out and go spen the rest of the night in my bunglow.
I spent most of today at Mon's reading my book ( Selected poems by D.H.Lawrence) I finished it and I really liked it.
I spent most of the day there.
I just didn't want to be home. Poor Damon. He couldn't come.
I got a call from the job woman and I start training on Monday.
It’s only for three hours. Nothings permeant yet. It’s a casual job but I need something.
I think the training is a bit like, do you like it and do we like you. That lasts for about two weeks.
I feel more confident now that I have had experience on the phone, So I’ve got confidence in that part and I’m looking forward to learning something different.
I’m just a little stressed. Worried.
I think 80% of that is Eve. 85% even.
My friend had her baby….On Monday at 1.30am.
A little girl.
I found out on Wednesday. I was a little disappointed that I wasn’t told earlier.
She was coming home the day they told me.
I haven’t seen her I figured I’d give her space because everyone probably bombarded her and I can understand if she wants time to settle in and get into a routine.
I just didn’t want to be the last person to find out.
It seemed she had heaps of visitors in the hospital…
Oh well.
My hearts thumping and I’m upset. I feel on edge. I’ve felt this way all day.
I don’t like it.
I want to know if I’m going to see Eve. I asked him if he was coming into the shop on Saturday as he said he was and I got no reply.
So I don’t know.
I’ve got this wedding hair up to do tomorrow. Great. It’s money but the woman I’m doing it has way under charged. I told her my price and she said that we would split the earnings. I agreed at the time but No.
I get paid for what I do and it goes for her too.
I don’t do hair up or hairdressing at that matter just to be paid way under the going rate. AND I have to travel a long distance. I doubt it will even cover my fuel!
I need to get out more.
I hate not socialising, talking to people, friends.
I feel like my stomach is in a knot.
My brother comes home from work in about ten or fifteen minutes. A shudder goes down my arms and my chest tightens. My heart thumps. I have to get out and go spen the rest of the night in my bunglow.
I spent most of today at Mon's reading my book ( Selected poems by D.H.Lawrence) I finished it and I really liked it.
I spent most of the day there.
I just didn't want to be home. Poor Damon. He couldn't come.
I got a call from the job woman and I start training on Monday.
It’s only for three hours. Nothings permeant yet. It’s a casual job but I need something.
I think the training is a bit like, do you like it and do we like you. That lasts for about two weeks.
I feel more confident now that I have had experience on the phone, So I’ve got confidence in that part and I’m looking forward to learning something different.
I’m just a little stressed. Worried.
I think 80% of that is Eve. 85% even.
My friend had her baby….On Monday at 1.30am.
A little girl.
I found out on Wednesday. I was a little disappointed that I wasn’t told earlier.
She was coming home the day they told me.
I haven’t seen her I figured I’d give her space because everyone probably bombarded her and I can understand if she wants time to settle in and get into a routine.
I just didn’t want to be the last person to find out.
It seemed she had heaps of visitors in the hospital…
Oh well.
My hearts thumping and I’m upset. I feel on edge. I’ve felt this way all day.
I don’t like it.
I want to know if I’m going to see Eve. I asked him if he was coming into the shop on Saturday as he said he was and I got no reply.
So I don’t know.
I’ve got this wedding hair up to do tomorrow. Great. It’s money but the woman I’m doing it has way under charged. I told her my price and she said that we would split the earnings. I agreed at the time but No.
I get paid for what I do and it goes for her too.
I don’t do hair up or hairdressing at that matter just to be paid way under the going rate. AND I have to travel a long distance. I doubt it will even cover my fuel!
I need to get out more.
I hate not socialising, talking to people, friends.
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