A bit of a rolling tangent...
My Blog is boring. A bit negative of late...
So life's a little up and down at the moment.
I now have my goal to go overseas. I've made up my mind. I want to do it now while i'm young. I'm turning 25 this year and I want to do it now. I have to have something to look to.
Makes things a little eaiser having something to look forward to.
I realllyyyy need this job.
At church the other day the talk was about giving. Giving of yourself, talents,time, money whatever it is how you use what God has given you.
It's funny how I walk out thinking, I needed to hear that and puts things into perspective. Decisions I was struggling with I walked out knowing what to do.
I walked in feeling a little down, confused and stressed.
I walked out feeling positive, having answers to my questions and alot happier.
Just thinking about a previous post about "hate for brother". For people otu there who think Christians are all good and what not, I think I show that were not all like that. I'm thinking this because my brother sits near me in a room and does things that he can not help and I can't stand it.
I can't. I feel like screaming stop doing that!!!!! But I manage to with hold myself.
I still get angry. Repeating things - God give me strength!
I know he can't help it. My mum once said to me if you hate it this much imagine being him and having to live with it.
My jaw is shut tight as it does when I try to keep my mouth shut but I feel like screaming, Crying, Screaming more crying. I have looked and the closest thing I have got for support is a phone call operator person who can't support me because they don't have anyone in their immideate family who has this!
I guess I just wanted someone who knows what I go through because they go through it too.
I'm going to go and do another search on the web. I hate chat on line I don't do it personally but I think I will do it if it will find me someone who can relate to what I go through.
What a tangent I've just gone through.
I read on Brians blog about how much we choose to disclose on the web.
I guess I've truley steped into that relm now!
Where was I...
Oh yeah.... After being all sounding Christian and that, It just goes to show were all human.
So life's a little up and down at the moment.
I now have my goal to go overseas. I've made up my mind. I want to do it now while i'm young. I'm turning 25 this year and I want to do it now. I have to have something to look to.
Makes things a little eaiser having something to look forward to.
I realllyyyy need this job.
At church the other day the talk was about giving. Giving of yourself, talents,time, money whatever it is how you use what God has given you.
It's funny how I walk out thinking, I needed to hear that and puts things into perspective. Decisions I was struggling with I walked out knowing what to do.
I walked in feeling a little down, confused and stressed.
I walked out feeling positive, having answers to my questions and alot happier.
Just thinking about a previous post about "hate for brother". For people otu there who think Christians are all good and what not, I think I show that were not all like that. I'm thinking this because my brother sits near me in a room and does things that he can not help and I can't stand it.
I can't. I feel like screaming stop doing that!!!!! But I manage to with hold myself.
I still get angry. Repeating things - God give me strength!
I know he can't help it. My mum once said to me if you hate it this much imagine being him and having to live with it.
My jaw is shut tight as it does when I try to keep my mouth shut but I feel like screaming, Crying, Screaming more crying. I have looked and the closest thing I have got for support is a phone call operator person who can't support me because they don't have anyone in their immideate family who has this!
I guess I just wanted someone who knows what I go through because they go through it too.
I'm going to go and do another search on the web. I hate chat on line I don't do it personally but I think I will do it if it will find me someone who can relate to what I go through.
What a tangent I've just gone through.
I read on Brians blog about how much we choose to disclose on the web.
I guess I've truley steped into that relm now!
Where was I...
Oh yeah.... After being all sounding Christian and that, It just goes to show were all human.
1 Comments:
25? Wow you're old... Oh wait, I'm 26. But I'm in agreement, yes, I should do something while I'm young. Perhaps I should go to church this weekend and get inspired.
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